Well hello there. Haha! So yeah its official i kinda hate my father. Usually i'd call him dad but neh... Father will do. He always treat my mom like fucking shit(not like hitting her and stuff but his fucking sarcasm and his unreasonable comments are fucking shit). Everybody in the house is sick of him. I know this sounds really fucking mean but i really wanna get rid of him. I think everbody in the house thinks like that right now. I dont give a fuck about him now. The reason i dont really like guys is because of him too. I cant look at guys like i used to. He has changed my perspective of guys like i'll think they're jerks eventho i know most of them are not but what to do my father is a fucking jerk. Guys might think im being unreasonable but what the fuck you will think the same thing if you have a father like mine. Im suffering each day ok. Everyday when i wake up i feel like im waking up to a nightmare... Every motherfucking day. People say they wake up from a nightmare but i wake up to one each day. I would put a strong front but actually im breaking slowly. People know because im blogging this but will they know how im suffering? What im feeling right now? How much i need a hug right now? How much i wanna talk to someone right now? No because i dont tell because i dont wanna annoy the people around me by telling them my fucking problems. I dont wanna be a fucking burden. I dont wanna be the girl that everyone wanna avoid because she'll tell all her problems every fucking day. I'd rather keep all my problems and let them out when i cant hold them in anymore. I wont care how fucking hurtful it'll be for me because im convinced that im strong for this shit. This house..... Its like a fucking warzone. Thats all i could say.